freeing from evil spirits
If love is like a possession, maybe my letters are like my
exorcisms. My letters set me free. Or at least they’re supposed to.
in such a manner as could not be otherwise
Inevitably there won’t be crunchy peanut butter and Josh will say too bad, pick something else.
a hotel providing overnight lodging for travelers
Would Margot meet me at the airport, or would I have to find my own way to the
elevation of mind and exaltation of character or ideals
He nudges Margot. “Your sister suffers from delusions of
marked by prudence or modesty and wise self-restraint
Over Kitty’s head Josh mouths to me, We’ll talk later, and I give him a
a sudden desire
Margot’s not the kind of girl to break up and get back together on a
whim; once she’s decided something, that’s it.
pause or hold back in uncertainty or unwillingness
waffling, no regrets.
capable of thinking in a clear and consistent manner
She hit her head on the floor, and she was unconscious, but then she woke up and she was fine. That was her
reprimand, scold, or express dissatisfaction with
I give her a
reproving look, and she ignores me.
failure to attend, especially school
One time she had to go before the court for
truancy. I never knew what
truancy was before I met Chris. FYI, it’s when you skip so much school you’re in trouble with the law.
paper cut to an appropriate size for writing letters
In sixth grade Chris liked
stationery and sleepovers and staying up all night watching John Hughes movies, just like me.
small Italian dumplings made of potato or flour
Chris and I are sharing a bowl of leftover
gnocchi in the living room when Margot comes home from dropping Kitty off at her swim team’s end-of-season barbecue.
ripen and generate pus
She says sometimes you have to scream out emotions; if you don’t, they’ll
express pleasure verbally
in a pensively sad manner
Wistfully, she says, “I wish I’d been in love more than once. I think you should fall in love at least twice in high school.”
the position of working for an expert to learn a profession
We’d hung out nearly every day that August, sometimes with Margot but mostly just by ourselves, because Margot had her
internship at the Montpelier plantation three days a week.
contemplation of things past
retrospect, it wasn’t so surprising that Josh would like Margot, since he’s that kind of guy too.
guided by whim and fancy
I was the
flighty one, the flibbertigibbet, as my white grandma would say.
a foolish, flighty, and overly talkative person
I was the flighty one, the
flibbertigibbet, as my white grandma would say.
in a manner expressing pain or sorrow for sins or offenses
“Yes. He waited for me after school today so he could tell me. He said—” Margot grinned
ruefully. “He said I’m his dream girl. Can you believe that?”
of or relating to tailoring or clothing
I’m proud she’s asking for my
sartorial advice, and it would be good to get out of the house and not be sad anymore, but I’m nervous about driving to the mall alone.
unpredictably excitable, especially of horses
I (or anyone, really) would consider myself a
obtained through instinctive knowledge
It should come to me
intuitively, easy, where I don’t even have to think about it.
give a false appearance of
I do this to
feign confidence, because the more I fake it, the more it’s supposed to feel true.
a slight depression in the smoothness of a surface
I shake my head; my throat is closing up. I just don’t want to cry. As long as I don’t cry...He seems to sense this. The irritated
furrow of his brow is loosening.
in a secretive manner
“No, his car was fine.”
Furtively, I wipe my cheeks with my arm. “It was my fault.”
an addition that was not included in the original plan
He’s getting into his car when, as an
afterthought, he turns around and asks, “Want me to call Triple A for you?”
marked by up-to-dateness in dress and manners
He could be a
dashing World War I soldier, handsome enough for a girl to wait years for him to come back from war, so handsome she could wait forever.
qualified by reservations
“Just say yes or no and mean it. Don’t make it
reflect deeply on a subject
mulling over the right word choice in my head when Josh says, “So just because Margot and I broke up, you’re not going to talk to me anymore either?”
artful or slick talk used to persuade
I go through my whole good news–bad news
spiel and he just sighs and says, “As long as you’re all right.”
arousing desire or expectation for something unattainable
“Lara Jean got into...” Kitty pauses
tantalizingly. “A fight with Daddy. Yeah, she was mean to me and Daddy told her to be nice, so they had a fight.”
a printed program for a theatrical performance
I’ve got Motown girl-group music playing, and my supplies are laid out all around me in a semicircle. My heart hole punch, pages and pages of scrapbook paper, pictures I’ve cut out of magazines, glue gun, my tape dispenser with all my different colored washi tapes. Souvenirs like the
playbill from when we saw Wicked in New York, receipts, pictures.
an arrangement of flowers that is usually given as a present
I’m carefully gluing a dried rose petal from Margot’s
corsage when my dad raps on the door.
in a manner difficult to detect or grasp
“This is a sunsuit,” I tell him, going back to my book. I try to
subtly hide the cover with my hand.